WHEN A TORNADO MEETS A VOLCANO (allie)

[lykomgitsashley]

Caroline really hadn't been at the apartment much lately. Ever since she had gotten into it with Allie on her tumblr she had been avoiding her like the plague. Caroline loved Allie to death, she was her best friend, but right now Allie was acting like a selfish little brat. True Allie had been completely right, and if she hadn't been making the comments that she was, and acting the way she was Care probably would have admitted that it was a complete joke. But the way that Allie was acting, made the vindictive bitchy side come out of Caroline. Something that didn't happen very often, hardly ever in fact

Care could kind of understand why she was acting the way she was. Sure she couldn't be happy for Allie in her relationship with Ryland because he was a drug addict, and treated her horribly sometimes. But why couldn't Allie be happy for her "relationship" with Alex. It was Allies brother and her best friend. Allie and Care had wished for years that they could be sisters and now they actually had the chance to do that, and she was acting like it was the worst thing in the world. Allie didn't know this, but by her having such a hissy hit about the pairing made Care feel like Allie felt like Caroline wasn't good enough for her brother.

She poked her head in the door looking around to make sure no one was home, especially Allie. She really didn't want to have to get into it with her best friend. She knew that if they did, it was going to be a big blow out, and she didn't want that. They had been friends for way to long, for something like this to get between them. She wasn't putting all the blame on Allie either, she knew that she had messed up too by setting her up on that blind date. Caroline shouldn't have done that. But why couldn't Allie just appreciate the fact that Caroline cared about her. She just wanted what was best for her, like everyone else did.

But Caroline had come to one conclusion after everything was said and done. Caroline Bradshaw was butting her nose completely out of Allison Casey's life. If she wanted to mess her life up, she could go right ahead and do it. It was completely obvious to her now that Allie didn't care about what Care thought or how she felt. She was even starting to question whether she even cared about her. She knew she did. but sometimes actions spoke louder than words, and the way she was acting lead her to feel like she didn't. Caroline didn't like this feeling at all.

She went in her room, and grabbed one of her over night bags. She had been sleeping at Alex's a lot lately, which was totally fun to an extent. But she did miss girl time with Allie. Caroline grabbed a bunch of cloths and shoved them into a bag. She needed more cloths, she had basically worn all the ones that she had packed the first time she had packed an overnight bad. So she figured it was time to take some new ones, she really didn't like doing laundry all that much. She grabbed a few things more things like her laptop and some art supplies. With all this frustration an drama going on in her life, she needed some kind of outlet to let it all out with.

[mckenna landon jameson]

Allie had been spending most of her time in her room, or with Ryland recently, she hated that she was avoiding one of her best friends but she really didn’t want to speak to her. She’d got to the stage that when she would see him next things would all blow up, and that wasn’t good. That day Allie had been out with friends, then she’d gone to see Ryland. When she came in, she didn’t think there would be anyone in. She unlocked the door of the apartment and opened it. The place looked tidy, which was good at least. She was thankful that Caroline didn’t seem to be around because she still didn’t think she wanted to speak to her. Though she did think that within reason she would talk to her, but it would probably be her yelling at her. In her opinion she did not see why she had to be the way she was acting. Caroline just seemed to be awkward about the whole thing, the fact that she did not believe it was one thing but to just keep saying that it was real just annoyed her. Everyone always had a problem with Ryland, and now it was the other way round, they must know how she felt.

If it hadn’t been so damn sudden, Allie probably wouldn’t have had such a problem with it all, but she had never known that the two liked each other, and now they were engaged? It was crazy and she just really did not like the idea at all. It was too sudden and not thought through at all, the whole thing was just really stupid. She didn’t like to think it, and even if it was a joke, which she believed that it was...it was stupid, they were lying to her like it was no big deal and she didn’t feel like it was fair, it wasn’t something you could prank about and she didn’t get why they would think it too, but everyone else seemed to be in on it and it had made her feel really quite alone. Did they really not see how much she was actually upset over it? Joke or not, it didn’t matter because either way she was upset, and she would have thought they were above the joke, but obviously not. It really sucked to be feeling like this and she didn’t really know what else to do. She felt bad for Tanner too because she kind of felt like the two of them had been dumped for something better in a way.

Allie went into her room and logged into her computer until she heard the door go and she sighed great she muttered to herself. She knew it was most probably Caroline since she knew Tanner was out. Allie heard drawers being opened and shut, making a bit of noise. She frowned. It may have been something to be petty over, but she didn’t care at all and went into her room to see her packing more into her bag. Allie frowned Oh what a surprise, you’re running back to Alex she rolled her eyes You know, this whole staying with Alex all the time, it’s not going to make things any better with us she told her. She hoped that Caroline knew this, but she probably never even considered it. Yeah, I’ve been avoiding you but I haven’t been running off to my ‘fiance’ she said using air quotes. I’ve been holding this all in since the double date you made me go on she told her I am finally letting it all come out because I can’t stand not to, just seeing you come in and pack more stuff just bugged me she said You are meant to be one of MY best friends yet you don’t even want to be near me she said and hold back her tears.

You don’t know how much it’s all upset me she told her Can you not see how sudden this all is? she asked I mean at least date beforehand, but no you just go for the fucking wedding, when are you going to tell me you’re pregnant? she said with a fake smile Oh wait.....you suddenly probably are she said letting herself get even more annoyed. It was all building up inside her and now she just had to let it all out. YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND!!! she shouted You just don’t get it! I mean I didn’t even know you had feelings for my brother....but wait....I don’t believe you so please Caroline just tell me the truth now she said It’s not like you would be happy for me if I told you that I was engaged to Ryland....you would have a complete freak out and you know it! she said and took a breath.

You’re being SO selfish and you can’t even see that she carried on. All this was making her feel better that she was letting it out in the open. If she was honest she’d been mad at her since the double date. Tanner had been let off since he had pretty much seen it had been a bad idea. You never apologised for the double date either, at least Tanner did she said And now you’re just spending all your time with Alex, helloo? You could at least not ignore Tanner. He’s done nothing wrong, yeah I was a bitch on tumblr or whatever but with a good reason, I am still not supporting this wedding, or however far you decide to take this. It isn’t right, its rushed and all this is waste isn’t it? she asked with a frown. You won’t listen and you don’t care she shrugged And before you turn it around and say I’m the one who doesn’t care, it is because I do care I am saying all this, just like you do with Ryland she said and rolled her eyes. Caroline wasn’t going to listen was she? But whatever At least now you know how I feel when everyone goes on about saying how he isn’t good enough. I mean if you actually KNEW him, you could judge but you don’t fucking care!

[lykomgitsashley]

Caroline jumped when she heard Allie's voice. She didn't know that anyone had been home. So she hadn't been expected her to come barging in her room and start yelling at her. Caroline hated being yelled at. Probably because she had never been yelled at as a child, so she wasn't used to it now. Whenever people yelled at her, she usually tended to cry. But Care was also one of those people who tended to cry at everything too. When she got too happy she cried, when she was mad she cried, when she was sad she cried. It was like her emotions were hardwired to her tear ducts or something. She hated it, but she knew that she was entirely to sensitive for her own good and she hated it.

"I know that it's not, but I don't want to fight with you." Caroline said, frowning at her best friend, because she knew that that was exactly what was about to happen and she couldn't run away from it. Care hated confrontation and yet she had found herself in more of it since she had gotten back from France than she had in her entire life. She listened to what Allie had to say though patiently not butting in because she knew that it would be rude and she didn't want that. Allie was right for the most part, what she was saying made perfect sense. But when Allie called her selfish she had hit a nerve because Caroline was far from it. She always looked for her friends best interests, always did everything they wanted her to, always did things for them and never for herself, and the one time that she did something that made her happy she was selfish? screw that.

"First off, you know what I'm sorry about the double date, It was a bad idea. I was just trying to help you get over Ryland since you two weren't together. But whatever I was wrong, I'll admit that." Caroline said, her voice not as friendly as it usually was. "And you know what, I'm sorry that I care about you enough to want what's best for you. But since you don't appreciate it, and don't even say that you do, because you know that you don't. I'm butting out of your love life completely. Do what you want, but don't come crying back to me when he's an asshole to you" She knew that that was an empty threat because the moment she saw Allie upset she would be like putty in her hands and want to comfort her. She was just mad.

"And I am YOUR best friend, but I'm a far better friend to you, then you are to me at times. Sometimes all you care about is yourself, and don't even deny it." Caroline said with a huff, if Allie wanted to call her selfish she was going to make it a point to point out how Allie was as well. "You didn't even care to find out why I was so upset before I left for France, and when I came back you didn't even ask why I was upset again. All you care about is Ryland, Ryland, Ryland or yourself that you couldn't even see that your best friend was going through some things." Maybe it wasn't true that all that Allie cared about was Ryland and herself but at times that's how Caroline felt sometimes, normally she was perfectly fine with it. But if Allie insisted on playing dirty with things, Care would stoop to her level no problem.

"Like did you know that Doug and I slept together around Christmas and I woke up the next morning and he was gone back to college without even so much as waking me up to say goodbye? No you didn't because you didn't even care to ask me why I was so upset before I left for France, and You didn't even ask why I was upset when I got back." She said, tears coming to her eyes out of anger over this whole situation, and out of remember how shitty she felt about the whole situation. "Every time you ever needed me I've been there for you, and you didn't even need to ask me to be. I just knew you needed me and I was there for you. And the biggest moment in my life, I lost my virginity to a total douche bag and you weren't there for me." Caroline sat on her bed, whipping the tears from her eyes. "But you know who was there for me..Alex was, Alex reassured me that I wasn't as big of a whore as I felt like I was."

"And another thing, I don't have to get to know your fucking boyfriend if I don't want to." She spat at her. "I prefer not to associate with drug addicts, and if I don't like someone I don't have to be around them if I don't want to. But like said before, I'm done with your relationship with him. If he make you happy and you wanna be with him, be with him. I could give a rats ass. Just know that if he gets you addicted to drugs, I'll kill him. And I'm not even playing around. I will take a gun and I will shoot him in his face and I will go to jail. I promise you." That might have sounded a little over dramatic, but Caroline was being completely serious. If Ryland got Allie on drugs, she would kill him. Because she didn't want that for Allie, and she'd be damned if she let someone ruin Allies life like that.

[mckenna landon jameson]

Yeah well I don’t care, I have some things I need to get off my chest Well at least you will admit that she said casually with a shrug. How do you know I don’t appreciate it Caroline? she asked her I know you want what is best for me and all that, but I know what I want she said with a shrug. She may be just being stupid right now but she didn’t care, she was really glad that she did have friends who looked out for her, but she didn’t like that they butted in her love life if she was honest, she didn’t see how it was their responsibility. Works for me she said not like I’ll miss you doing it, and it’s not like I need it either she said I can look after myself she told her I don’t need for you to be there for me with that, I don’t need you to do that she told her Oh and I will remember that, even though I won’t need it she said. It’s not going to happen again she said. Though she did not believe that really, she knew that it probably would do.

Allie shook her head That’s not fair Caroline she said shaking her head again. And you damn well fucking know it she said getting angry, that was low, to say she wasn’t a good enough friend. Maybe I do get too involved with him but like I have always said, you just don’t understand she said It’s not easy to let someone go when they have been apart of my life for as long as he has she said. Though saying that, right now she was wondering why Caroline was even bothering saying all this and she kind of wished she would go away, that hurt her. CAROLINE YOU TOLD ME YOU DIDN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT! she shouted, raising her voice. I didn’t want to bring it up again knowing that you didn’t want to talk about it she said And BEFORE you left I could have said something, I mean I did think there would be another reason why, but you never said anything, I did ask Caroline, you cannot tell me I did not care she said feeling the tears coming now You know I’ve been there for you, how dare you say I haven’t she had been there for Caroline through her parent’s divorce, all through Allie had been there. I honestly do not know what to say to you right now Caroline...I just.... she shook her head.

I’m not a fucking mind reader Caroline she snapped You did your best to make it seem you were okay, like I said, I DID ask what was wrong, but you didn’t want to talk about it....and you do realise you just repeated yourself? she rolled her eyes You just told me I didn’t ask what was wrong she said. She wasn’t going to hold her tears in anymore and let them fall down her cheeks. I can’t believe you are saying all this about me she said If that is how you feel, I’ll move out she said. As for you and Doug sleeping together, well if he was around, or I would have known, I’d kick his ass she frowned. But like I said, I am not a mind reader she rolled her eyes You just can’t see it she said wiping her tears I am not as bad as you are making me out to be, maybe I should have seen it straight away, maybe I should have known already but I didn’t and for that I am sorry, but you seem to have had the best time in France, so you must have gotten over it in a way she said. You could have told me though she sighed instead you tell Alex....well that is like me having something to tell you and going to tell Archer...you know what? Next time I will she said with a nod.

Allie closed her eyes and let her tears fall once again. Why don’t you, just see yourself in MY position she told her trying to be calm about it but she just wanted to scream. You can’t give up on someone that easily she said And I know you would be the same Caroline, I mean...if I was to get with someone else... her voice trailed off I don’t know what he’d do. I honestly don’t want anyone else, I have been through it in my head so many times and I just cannot see myself with anyone else. It hurts she said.You don’t know, you just don’t know. I could care less about you getting involved in my lovelife she said. Seriously? You? she shook her head No, I don’t believe you for a second, you wouldn’t have the guts she said simply He doesn’t even do drugs around me, and he’s never forced me to do them she said And no, that doesn’t make things better or right or anything like that, but you know what? You don’t ever see how he is with me, you don’t care she said. I don’t think I can even be around you right now Caroline, you have no idea how upset all this has made me, and yeah I may be over reacting a little, but it all seems like a big joke, everyone in on it but me, that is what I didn’t like, and the fact that you suddenly are engaged and not even dating, and how you are with Tanner, you flirt with him too and its messing with peoples feelings.

[lykomgitsashley]

"You know that saying actions speak louder than words." Caroline asked, not really waiting for her to reply, because it was redundant to even reply to it. Because everyone knew that saying. "Well your actions prove to me that you don’t appreciate it." She said bluntly. Care rolled her eye when Allie said that she could take care of herself, oh yes, of course she could that was why she was dating a drug addict. Way to take good care of herself. "I’m sure it won’t.. I’ll believe it when I see it Allie." She said not sounding the least bit convinced that that douche bag wouldn’t hurt her best friend again.

"Oh I see, everything seems perfectly clear now." She said, sounding even more pissed off and hurt then she had before. "So let me get this straight, since you know I’m stupid sometimes. If someone has a penis and sleeps with you, treats you like shit its hard for you to let them go?" She asked, again not really waiting for a response before she continued. "But its so much easier for you to let someone who’s known you longer than that scumbag has, has always been there for you no matter what, and has been nothing but nice to you your entire life is completely easy for you to let go." She huffed, her eyes glassy with tears, her face beat red. "Glad to know where I stand and how much our friendship meant to you."

"AND WHEN HAS THAT STOPPED YOU BEFORE?!" Care shouted right back at her, if Allie was going to raise her voice and shout at her, she would do the same. She knew that this whole fight was childish and when it was over she was going to regret it deeply, but right now she was hurt and angry. She knew it wasn’t right, but she wouldn’t be saying any of this if Allie hadn’t called her selfish. It was like the match that started the forest fire. "Any other time you would have pushed and pushed until I told you what was wrong."Seeing Allie cry made Care’s heart hurt, she hated seeing her best friend cry, especially knowing that she was the reason for her tears.

"Don’t be stupid and move out, it be smarter for me to move out. All my shit is packed anyway and I’d be moving out when I get married anyway." She said shaking her head, Allie moving out was the last thing that she wanted to happen. Especially since she knew that they would only fight for little bit and go right back to being best friends. It would be stupid for her to move out and have to move right back in. "Oh and I’m as bad as you make me seem? Calling me selfish? I’m far from that." She said whipping her the tears that were falling down her cheek away. "How can you say that? You know damn Well I do shit for you, or Tanner or Alex hell even fucking Doug before I’d do anything for myself. And yet I’m selfish?"

"If you don’t want to be with anyone else than fine. Like I said I’m butting out. Just don’t expect me to be buddy buddy with him. I’ll tolerate him, but I’m not going out of my way to be nice to him just cause he’s your boyfriend" Caroline said, feeling that that was a good enough compromise. To tolerate someone that she absolutely hated for Allies sake, and that was about as good as it was going to get too. "You don’t think I’m serious Allison…Try me. I’ll go with you right now and buy the fucking gun and bullets right now." she said in a voice that clearly meant that she meant business. "Your right I don’t care about any of that. It helps sure, but at the end of the day he’s still a drug addict and you deserve way better. You won’t change my mind."

Caroline stopped in her tracks when Allison accused her of flirting with Tanner and messing with people’s feelings. That hurt more than anything she had said before. She felt like Allie had just slapped her in the face. "I don’t flirt with Tanner!" She said, well maybe she did, but in a friendly way not the way that Allie was accusing her…did she? "How do you think this makes me feel huh? I just found out my best friend thinks that I’m a selfish whore who plays with people’s feelings…you don’t think that makes me feel like shit about myself?" Okay so she knew that Allie didn’t exactly call her a whore, but she might as well have with her comment. "If that’s how you really feel then maybe my moving out is a good idea cause I can’t be around you right now either." She said getting up, grabbing the bag that she had packed and stormed out of the house slamming the door behind her and getting in her car and peeling out of the their driveway so fast that it made her tired squeal.